9/11 Families to Watch Moussaoui Face Fate

But the grief is fresh in her voice as she recalls waiting while workers searched for the remains of victims.

"We got back two bones," she said. "You take a vibrant 35-year-old woman and we got two bones back. I am more angry that we got just that, though some families got nothing. We buried her in a baby's casket. That broke my heart. But some families had it worse. Some buried empty coffins." She said that to go, she will have to take time off from her job at her church. "I wouldn't mind going once or twice to get a feel for what they are doing," she said. "But unfortunately, I can't jump through the screen and kill him myself, which is what I would like to do."

She said she is not looking to get anything out of the sentencing hearing. "Let me tell you," she said. "There is no closure. I will never get closure on this. It has caused tremendous grief and stress. It has totally changed my entire family."

Devora Wolk Pontell, whose husband, U.S. Navy Lt. Darin H. Pontell, 26, was killed in the attack on the Pentagon, volunteered to testify but was not asked. She said she thinks it is because she is an assistant Howard County prosecutor.

She and her husband were newlyweds at the time of the attacks. Although she is conflicted about watching the trial, she is not conflicted about what should happen to Moussaoui.

"I believe he was involved at some level," she said. "But whether he was the actual 20th hijacker, I don't know. It doesn't really matter to me. He was involved, he has to pay the consequences. I hope he gets the death penalty."

Pontell admits that she is not sure she could stand to listen to the testimony, particularly that of other families.

"At the beginning, I wanted to be there for every bit of it," she said. "But now, I don't know. It is difficult. It just kind of opens up old wounds. It is hard to move on if you are constantly reminded of it."

Staff writer Jerry Markon contributed to this report.