"I want to say this about my state: When Strom Thurmond ran for president, we voted for him. We're proud of it. And if the rest of the country had followed our lead, we wouldn't have had all these problems over all these years."

-- Sen. Trent Lott at Sen. Strom Thurmond's

100th birthday party, Dec. 5

Senate Republican leader Trent Lott's comments may have puzzled some people, but I was not among them. Nor was I surprised to read that he'd made similar statements in a 1980 speech in Mississippi. I knew exactly what he meant when he mentioned "all these problems" this month and talked about "the mess we are today" in 1980. It's not hard when you know where the seeds of Lott's words are planted.

I've spent the past three years of my life steeped in Mississippi's dark civil rights history, trying to figure out what landed my parents in a dossier in the files of the notorious State Sovereignty Commission. In my quest to confront Mississippi's past -- and my own -- I scanned file after file of coded speech about racial segregation. By the time I figured out that my parents were being watched not for their NAACP membership but merely because they were black professionals, Mississippi's segregationist lingo had become embedded in my consciousness. In my twists and turns through the Sovereignty Commission files, I found the words "states' rights" and "illegal encroachment by the federal government" used in place of "segregation" and "integration." Even the word "sovereignty" in the commission's name was an attempt to provide dignity to a panel that, for all practical purposes, intended to wage war against civil rights and desegregation, even if that meant spying on its own citizens.

In Sen. Lott's pronouncements, I heard that same code. I know how it works: You don't directly say what you mean. You dance around it, in the hopes that whatever you say can be either defended politically or benignly denied. I believe that "problems" served Lott as a code word for the factor that race now plays in American politics. It was a means of disguising his nostalgia for the days when politics in America (and at our mutual alma mater, Ole Miss) was strictly a white man's game. Now that members of his club know how he feels, the senator can deny any racist sentiment. After all, in a state that is almost 40 percent African American, he needs black votes for his political survival.

And deny it he has. While the senator has now apologized three times for his remarks, first calling them "insensitive" and most recently "a grievous mistake," he has maintained that he wasn't talking about race at all, but about Thurmond's policies on defense and the economy. At his news conference in Mississippi on Friday, however, Lott also apologized for "opening old wounds and hurting many Americans who feel so deeply in this area." In asking for forgiveness, he said he has "seen the destruction" caused by "these immoral policies of the past."

So why did it take a week of rising criticism, coming from as high as the president, for Lott to acknowledge his state's racially- charged past and its link to the present? I can tell you why. Mostly, Mississipians like Lott prefer to act as if groups such as the Sovereignty Commission never existed or never exerted any real influence. But the racial demons of history lurk in the awareness of all of us, myself included, who came of age there as segregation's walls came tumbling down.

I wasn't really conscious of the Sovereignty Commission during my childhood in the 1960s and '70s, and I did not fully understand what it was until adulthood. But over the past few years I've learned how much groups like it and the White Citizens' Council influenced Mississippi's mind-set. They distributed books and pamphlets in schools, sponsored television and radio broadcasts, and spoon-fed stories to local newspapers. The state even censored certain TV programs. Both Lott and I were shaped by that influence, albeit in different ways. And the group-think mentality has its origins in Strom Thurmond's Dixiecrat movement.

The Dixiecrats' platform in 1948 stressed "home rule" and "local self-government," and advocated defending the "Southern way of life." After Mississippi's citizens voted overwhelmingly for Thurmond and his Dixiecrats that year, a movement began to protect the state against the forces for integration that everyone knew were coming. In 1952, Mississippi began an "equalization movement" at black and white schools, hoping to forestall integration. It did not work. In an effort to maintain segregation and white supremacy, the state established the Sovereignty Commission in 1956 to keep a handle on anyone, black or white, who challenged Jim Crow segregation.

The commission's charter empowered it to "perform any and all acts and things deemed necessary and proper to protect the sovereignty of the state of Mississippi, and her sister states, from encroachment thereon by the Federal Government." The actions and inner workings of the commission were secret and known only to a select few. With the exception of its obsession with "race mixing" (i.e., interracial sex), the commission conducted much of its business in the coded speech that matched its charter -- much the same code that I heard in Sen. Lott's words.

During the civil rights era in Mississippi, if a political action was taken in the name of states' rights, it wasn't called racism -- even if that's what it really was. Back then, African Americans weren't part of the state's political system: A whole means of political discourse evolved that compounded their exclusion. What Lott did this month, and what he did 20 years ago when he uttered much the same sentiment about Thurmond in a different context, was fall back into the racially exclusionary speech that was just an everyday practice when he entered Mississippi politics.

In Mississippi, the political tradition of coded speech continues, cleverly disguising racial issues that politicians don't want to discuss openly. In 1999 I saw a political poster on a Mississippi highway proclaiming a (white) candidate "one of us for all of us." During last year's debate over removing the confederate emblem from the Mississippi state flag, opponents of the measure used words such as "heritage" and "tradition" to shield themselves from accusations of racism. More recently, in the race for Congress in Mississippi's 3rd District, Rep. Chip Pickering proclaimed that he stood for "Mississippi conservative values," a thinly veiled message that suggests he follows the lead of Mississippi's old-line white politicians.

I believe Lott knows, and used, the code. He may deny it, but that doesn't convince those of us who know the code, too.

When I first heard about his remark, I was reminded of a story by Eudora Welty called "Where Is the Voice Coming From?" The story, written the night after civil rights activist Medgar Evers's murder, looks into the mind of the man who fired the gun. On that hot June night in 1963, Welty believed that she recognized the killer -- not as a suspect one might identify in a police lineup, but as someone who came from the same time and place and felt the same pressures from being a part of Mississippi society. She knew where it came from -- the voice that told him to gun down a man in cold blood because of his race. She had heard those same voices echoing through white Mississippi.

Language that once implied physical violence still implies a sort of violence to the fabric of the nation, and a set of attitudes that remain hurtful to most Americans. Clearly, Lott's testimonial at a birthday party is far removed from that shooting 40 years ago, but he must still recognize that the coded language of the past remains potent today.

I know what influenced Trent Lott to proclaim his pride in Mississippi's support of a segregationist. I know what made him express chagrin about the "problems" that a Dixiecrat president could have helped this country avoid. As I learned from reading a Eudora Welty story as a boy in Mississippi, it's easy to recognize something when you know where the voice comes from. Ralph Eubanks is a Washington-based editor and publisher. His book on Mississippi, "Ever Is a Long Time," is to be published next year by Perseus Books.