"Everyone out there in society was telling me the same thing: have an abortion, there's nothing to it, pay 'em $200 and your troubles are over," she said. "It felt like there was a big iron hand shoving me in one direction."
"My boyfriend said, 'Have an abortion.' My doctor said, 'Have an abortion.' My friends said, 'Have an abortion.' I called an abortion clinic and they said, 'We have a doctor who is so handsome you won't even notice you're having an abortion.' I even went to an adoption agency, and the lady asked me, 'Have you considered an abortion?' "
Victoria said no.
In her mind, she kept seeing "a baby with a little hat," a girl with dark curls like her own and a frilly bonnet. "In this society we save whales, we save timber wolves and bald eagles and Coke bottles. Yet everyone wanted me to throw away my baby," she said.
The independent young woman from Wisconsin who went south and bought a flashy sports car and had so much fun is four months pregnant. Her decision has been costly. She says she has lost her job, her boyfriend and even her closest women friends.
She hired a lawyer to force her former boyfriend to help support her during pregnancy, but the lawyer enrages her. "He keeps saying, 'the alleged father should do this and that,' " she said angrily. "He's not the alleged father, or the alleged anything else. He's my baby's father."
"I've been going through a holy hell," she said. "You cry. You fall apart. You don't know what to tell your mother and father."
Victoria, 27, has found help from a "nice Christian couple" and Sav-A-Life, a new group in Dallas run by James N. McKee, a young seminary student dedicated to finding alternatives to abortion. Victoria plans to put her child up for adoption "unless it's a little girl," she said. "I don't see how I could give a little girl away."