Jud Logan and Bonnie Dasse were hoping to make a name for themselves at the 1992 Summer Olympics in Barcelona. They did, but it wasn't what they expected. They didn't win a medal; instead, they became the first U.S. athletes since 1976 to be disqualified from the Olympics for failing a drug test and went home to their friends and family in disgrace.

They both were 33, both veterans of more than one Olympics. Logan finished fourth in Barcelona, the best performance by a U.S. hammer thrower in 36 years. Dasse, a shot putter, didn't qualify for the finals. Both were chosen for drug testing after their events. Lab technicians found traces of clenbuterol, a German asthma medication officially classified as an anabolic steroid, in their urine.

Word came at dawn. An official from the U.S. Olympic delegation walked into their rooms in the athletes' village in Barcelona and, on different days after their different competitions, awoke each of them to deliver the same devastating message.

"There's been a problem with your drug test," the officials said. "You've tested positive."

Logan and Dasse both admit they used the drug. Logan says he used it in training, thinking it was a stimulant, not a steroid, and stopped when he heard that it was a steroid -- months before the Olympics. Dasse says she was lackadaisical in finding out more about the little white pills, given to her by a friend, that gave her a boost during her training.

Although only five of the 9,366 athletes at the 1992 Summer Olympics were caught using performance-enhancing drugs, the man in charge of the IOC's medical commission said recently that 10 percent of Olympic athletes are regularly using them.

Based on that comment by Prince Alexandre de Merode, 931 athletes got away with drug use in Barcelona. But, using de Merode's figures, more than 8,000 athletes competed, won and lost, without the use of performance-enhancing drugs. Did Logan and Dasse think they were jeopardizing their Olympic hopes?

"Sometimes you do things that you don't have a good reason for," Dasse said. "My friend said, 'Just try it.' I can think for myself, but I said, 'It's not going to hurt.' So I tried it."

"I don't ever want to portray that I was an unknowing person," Logan said, maintaining still that he never knowingly took a steroid. "I knew it was a step out further than I'd ever gone before, but we're talking the difference between a creek and the Grand Canyon between what I did and what people who {knowingly} take anabolic steroids do."

Stimulant and Steroid

When the U.S. Olympic Committee began hearing about clenbuterol in 1988, it determined that it was a stimulant and classified it as a banned substance during competition because its properties could illegally enhance an athlete's performance. Clenbuterol joined thousands of other drugs on the banned list, drugs that athletes might be tempted to use to improve performance.

But clenbuterol also was found to increase muscle bulk and decrease fat in livestock animals. So, in February 1992, the USOC categorized it as an anabolic steroid, banned at all times, in the offseason as well as at the time of competition.

Drug rules are different at different times of the year. In the offseason -- out of competition -- athletes are allowed to use many stimulants, including cold medicines. Out-of-competition drug tests began in earnest in the wake of the Ben Johnson scandal at the 1988 Olympics, when the Canadian sprinter was stripped of his gold medal after testing positive for steroids.

But out-of-competition tests search only for anabolic steroids and substances that hide or mask their use. Stimulants are allowed. Only during drug testing at a competition are stimulants not allowed.

Logan, one of the world's best hammer throwers, says he purchased clenbuterol at a pharmacy in Stuttgart. Dasse, one of the nation's top shot putters, had gotten her tablets from a friend in California, who obtained them from Europe. The drug is not legally available in the United States.

Both the drug and its reputation came to the athletes, they say, through the informal "grapevine" of gossip and information to which some international athletes belong. It was known to quickly disappear from the athletes' systems before competition; some said it was undetectable two days after it was last taken.

Logan said that same grapevine informed him in February 1992 that clenbuterol was being reclassified as a steroid, and that he stopped using it when he got the word. It was supposed to clear the system in a matter of days, but it was found in his urine in August. How could it still have been there? Logan says he doesn't know.

Dasse said she first found out about clenbuterol in June 1992, when her friend mentioned it. Even then, four months after the drug was reclassified by the USOC, she said she thought it was a stimulant. She admits she took the drug in Barcelona, but she thought she had stopped in time for it to get out of her system.

Neither athlete ever checked with the USOC, which has a well-publicized, toll-free hotline for athletes with questions about drugs. Dasse simply took a friend's advice; Logan listened to the grapevine.

Both said after the Olympics that they thought they were going to be given the penalty for taking a stimulant -- banishment from all competition for three months.

They were wrong. The International Olympic Committee, like the USOC, generally had classified clenbuterol as an anabolic steroid for months, and, on July 30, 1992, days before the two Americans were caught, officially and specifically named it as an anabolic steroid. Logan and Dasse weren't suspended for three months. They got kicked out of track and field -- nationally and internationally -- for four years.

"You have to look at Jud's and Bonnie's cases and kind of empathize," said Dr. Wade Exum, the USOC's director of drug control administration. "I don't see them as bad people at all. But they were using a banned substance and got caught at the Olympics."

"I understand their concern," said Dr. Don Catlin of UCLA, a member of the IOC's doping sub-commission. "They're caught in the whole complicated story of how tough bans should be. This is not an easy one to decide."

Even for him. On one hand, he is sympathetic. On the other, he has called clenbuterol "a doper's delight," because it both enhances muscles and acts as a stimulant.

World Unto Its Own

Logan and Dasse are part of a world in which some athletes abuse substances in pursuit of gold medals; a world in which competitors constantly speculate about who is and who isn't taking performance-enhancing drugs; a world in which some 3,000 drugs or classifications of drugs are on the IOC and USOC banned lists. Included on the list of substances banned at competition time because they contain stimulants are drugs found in many American medicine cabinets: Sudafed, NyQuil, Sine-Aid, Sine-Off, Sinutab, Vicks Inhaler.

It's a world in which athletes invent their own training regimens, where they try almost anything, where they justify taking something illegal because they say other athletes are doing it. They pop dozens of vitamins a day. They experiment with protein supplements, vitamin supplements and almost anything a customer can find on a shelf in a health-food store or in an advertisement in a body-building magazine.

Sometimes these items contain substances that are banned by the IOC and its member organizations, including the USOC. Sometimes they don't. It's the athletes' responsibility to find out. Sometimes they do. Sometimes they don't.

"What concerns me greatly," said Catlin, "is that athletes are often taking many, many different things -- concoctions, things from health-food stores, some herbal product from China. They are continually asking us if it's banned or not. It might be legal, but the broader issue is, 'Why do they do this?' The answer has to be that they are under such intense pressure and they must say, 'If it's helping someone, I better take it to be darn sure I'm not missing something.' It's unbelievable the things they're taking."

Logan and Dasse supplemented their training with loads of perfectly legal pills. Logan said he took up to 80 vitamins, vitamin supplements, amino acids and desiccated liver tablets a day; Dasse said she took a daily vitamin pack filled with seven tablets.

Logan added clenbuterol to the mix after he first heard about it in August 1991 at the world championships in Tokyo, where he did not do well, missing the finals.

Beginning in October 1991, for five months, he said he took clenbuterol: "Two tablets, three or four days a week."

"I never thought I was taking a chance, but I did know that I was extending myself beyond the realm of what you could buy in a health-food store," Logan said. "I knew it gave a stimulant effect and it was the stimulant effect that I desired. It was as if I drank two cups of coffee before every workout. I ask people at speeches I give, 'Do you do better at work after two cups of coffee?' and people say yes. It helped me too. Hammer throwing was my job."

Said the USOC's Exum: "When athletes say it's just like taking a few cups of coffee, then I want to know why they don't just take a few cups of coffee and not risk an entire career."

To prepare for the 1992 Olympic year, Logan, an Olympian in 1984 and 1988, put together his "master program," including yoga, sports massage and vitamin supplementation. He also bought a $400 juice machine.

"Apple, carrot and lemon was supposed to be your energy drink, so I'd have that before every practice," he said. "Then, on weekends, I would have a spinach, broccoli, carrot and apple drink, which is good for recovery and cleansing the system."

Dasse, a member of the 1988 Olympic team as well, already had made the U.S. Olympic team and had just returned home from the track and field trials in New Orleans in June when a friend came to her apartment in Orange County, Calif.

The friend had suggested vitamins and protein supplements before, but, this time, he mentioned clenbuterol. She began taking the drug every couple of days.

"If I'm lifting on a certain day, I take my Excedrin," she said. "In the morning, I have to have oatmeal. In the afternoon, I've got to have some protein powder. That's my system, that's my schedule, that's how I train. When I added clenbuterol, I'd use it for lifting one day, then I'd switch around. The next day, I'd use Co-Advil for throwing. Then I'd switch and try Excedrin for lifting and try the clenbuterol for throwing."

Excedrin is not a banned substance. Co-Advil is like many other over-the-counter medications: fine during the offseason, banned as a stimulant in competition.

"You've got to remember I was working at a job, nine to five, sometimes getting afternoons off, then trying to get ready for the Olympics at night," Dasse said. "I'm not a bad person. I'm just me. I live in Irvine, I have a cat and I got into track and field because I love the sport."

Dasse said clenbuterol was different. It gave her an "up" feeling.

"You can see it in activity and awareness, like with a cup of coffee, where an hour later, you're more alert. So, with clenbuterol, I knew that when I was tired and had to work out, I was more alert. But I also noticed I was jittery. Once, at breakfast in Barcelona, I couldn't get a spoonful of cereal from the bowl to my mouth. I said to myself, 'What is this?' "

She said she took the drug in Barcelona, stopping three days before her competition began.

Once before, Dasse had had a close call with drug testing, but that time, she got away with it.

Her first international track and field trip was to the 1986 Goodwill Games in Moscow. There, she was sitting in her dorm room, chatting with her roommate, when the roommate noticed Dasse had a bottle of NyQuil.

"When was the last time you had that?" the roommate asked.

"Last night," Dasse said.

"Bonnie, you're competing today. That's a banned substance."

"No," Dasse replied. "That's NyQuil. It puts me to sleep."

Dasse was wrong. NyQuil is banned at competition time because it contains ephedrine, a stimulant. She ran to see the team doctor, who told her there wasn't much she could do, except drink a lot of water to try to flush it out of her system.

As it turned out, Dasse was lucky. She was not tested. And she said she still takes NyQuil.

Watching and Waiting

After the IOC disqualified Logan and Dasse from the Olympic Games, they both received four-year suspensions from the International Amateur Athletic Federation, track and field's worldwide governing body -- two years longer than Johnson's ban. The IAAF increased the penalty from two to four years in 1991 to come down even harder on drug offenders.

Neither Logan nor Dasse has appealed their suspension, at least not yet. They are watching and waiting to see what happens in the most celebrated case involving clenbuterol, that of German world sprint champion Katrin Krabbe.

She and two other German runners were banned last September for four years. The German track and field federation has said that it will apply to the IAAF to reinstate the runners at the end of 1993. Krabbe said the drug never appeared on the German banned list until after she had been tested for it. She is expected to have a hearing on her appeal this month, at the earliest.

Britain's Arnold Beckett, another member of the IOC doping sub-commission, has said clenbuterol is not an anabolic steroid. It's a stimulant only, he said. Beckett's contentions helped to lift the suspensions of two British weightlifters who were sent home from the Olympics after it was discovered in out-of-competition testing prior to the Games that they had taken clenbuterol.

Unlike the USOC, British officials apparently had not warned their athletes specifically about the anabolic steroid classification of clenbuterol.

Still, the experts' differing opinions give Logan and Dasse hope.

After their respective hearings, several days apart, Logan and Dasse both left Barcelona. Logan left Aug. 5 and flew to Chicago, where he was anticipating a five-hour layover before flying home to North Canton, Ohio. When he stepped off the plane at O'Hare, he was shocked to see two of his brothers from Columbus, tears streaming down their faces.

"They knew I had five hours by myself," he said, "and they didn't want me to see the headlines."

Word already had reached the United States that Logan had tested positive for an anabolic steroid. When he got home, he found his entire family in tears.

"I was devastated," said Gloria Logan, Jud's mother, who had been in Barcelona watching him compete, but left a day before the positive drug test. "It was just like someone hit me in the stomach with a ball bat."

Jud Logan and his family are well-known in North Canton. Jud's brother, Jeff, was a star tailback at Ohio State the year after Archie Griffin left. His father, Richard, was an offensive lineman for the Green Bay Packers. Another brother, Andy, was a star defensive back at nearby Kent State.

When Jud was competing in Barcelona, dozens of townspeople packed into the YMCA to watch his every throw on NBC's TripleCast.

Dasse has neither the credentials nor the following Logan has, but, in her own way, she, too had to try to unpeel layers of disgrace.

She flew home on an Olympic team charter on Aug. 8, telling just a couple of her close friends of her positive drug test. She thought no one else knew until she called her parents from Dulles Airport, where she had a four-hour layover. They told her they already had heard the news on television. Her heart sank.

Fearing others would know, Dasse bought a book of crossword puzzles, found a deserted airport gate and sat there alone until it was time to board her flight.

When she got home, she picked up the telephone and tried to decipher the situation for family and friends. In her explanations, she found a certain irony.

"You can't explain it fully to your family and friends because you sound so clinical and they say, 'You must have been taking steroids because you know so much about it.' "

In the six months that have followed the Olympics, Logan has gone back to work at his $12,000-a-year job as director of nautilus and weight-training at the YMCA. He said he makes no more than $6,000 a year competing, and even if he won an Olympic medal in Barcelona, there was little prospect for much more.

He, his wife and his family of three children live on his income and the $12,000 his wife makes balancing the books at his family's sporting goods store.

Dasse has returned to her $20,000-30,000 a year bookkeeping job with a land development firm in Southern California. Logan has been working out, but Dasse said she has stopped training. They are in athletic limbo. If their suspensions stand, they will not be able to compete until August 1996, missing the Atlanta Olympics.

By that time, both will be 37. There might not be another Olympic opportunity for either of them, although Logan vows to return in the year 2000, if necessary, simply to clear his name.

"I've never used steroids," he said. "Everybody considers it, but it would have been too hypocritical to be talking one way to kids and doing another. I just wouldn't do it."

WHAT: Clenbuterol, a drug not legally available in the United States, is used in the treatment of bronchial asthma.

WHERE SOLD: Austria, Germany, Italy, Mexico, Spain. Albuterol is an equivalent drug available in the United States for the treatment of bronchial asthma.

DOSAGE: .02-.03 milligrams twice daily.

ADVERSE EFFECTS: Muscular tremors and cramps, palpitations, tenseness, headaches, blurred vision.

OLYMPIC CLASSIFICATION: In 1988, the USOC determined clenbuterol was a stimulant and banned its use during competition because it could enhance performance. In February 1992, the USOC reclassified clenbuterol as an anabolic steroid and banned it at all times after it was shown to increase muscle bulk and decrease fat in livestock animals. SOURCE: "Drugs Available Abroad: A Guide to Therapeutic Drugs Available and Approved Outside the U.S."