I’m still wondering why they would inflate my hopes with kind words and compliments when they really didn’t plan on hiring me. Why do that to someone when the truth is easier to handle and doesn’t give you false hopes?

My brain has been racing since then, but through my constant thinking I’ve come to a great revelation: I really didn’t want that job anyway. I’m making a new plan for my future employment, and this job didn’t fit into this new plan. Yes, it’s a paycheck, a 401(k) and health insurance, but sometimes those things don’t matter so much. It matters to me that I learn new things and can fit easily into this new economy. I want something that’s a challenge and to feel as if I’m contributing to society, this new society.

My brain tells me that this job just wasn’t for me. My heart tells me that I can hang on and hold out for something better a little longer. I just have to be patient and stay focused. It’ll happen. Hopefully.

More than two years after the end of the recession, 14 million Americans remain out of work. The “Help Wanted” project follows six unemployed people from across the country as they struggle to pay the bills, preserve relationships and hold on to hope for the future. The project seeks to show the true affect of joblessness — through the eyes of the unemployed.

To read more from the front lines of America’s jobless ranks, go to www.washingtonpost.com/helpwanted.