Lindsay Lohan sat down with Oprah Sunday night on Oprah’s Next Chapter. Lohan talked about how going to jail was a way for her “to find some peace” and discussed her plans for the future, including her desire to continue working.

“…Being in my addiction and everything and having all the chaos around me that I was so comfortable with. I somewhere inside knew and kind of wanted to go to jail… I think that was subconsciously being put out there by me, just by my actions, or lack there of. Just to find some peace…”

“I feel whole again. And I have such a desire to want to keep this feeling and stay this way. And I’m willing to do whatever it takes…And I really want to be on set, like, that feeds me.”