The video starts with Gomez in her dressing room alone as the audio starts: Her tearful monologue about some sort of hell she’s going through.”I felt like I know, I know him though, and I know his heart, and I know he wouldn’t do anything to hurt me,” she says, her voice cracking through tears. “But I didn’t realize that feeling so confident and feeling so great about myself and then it just be completely shattered by one thing.”
She starts sobbing harder. “By something so stupid (long pause) but then you make me feel crazy. You make me feel like it’s my fault. I was in pain.”
The rest of the video chronicles a relationship where Gomez and Unnamed Hot Music Video Guy are clearly both unhappy, but can’t break away from each other. “The bed’s getting cold and you’re not here/The future that we hold is so unclear/But I’m not alive until you call/And I’ll bet the odds against it all…There’s a million reasons why I should give you up/But the heart wants what it wants.”
Pretty candid lyrics coming from someone who is careful never to confirm any details of her personal life, even though the tabloids dutifully report every bit of it. Not only did Gomez spill that the song was about Bieber, she even opened up about other aspects of her life in a radio interview with Ryan Seacrest Thursday morning. She admitted that (as we know from the headlines about her canceled tour dates and unfollowing all of her friends on Instagram) she’s had a tough year.
“I think the biggest problem I had this year…I turned 22, I was trying to figure out what I’m doing,” Gomez told Seacrest. “It was the first time I was constantly being kicked down for doing that.”
Okay, so it’s still kind of vague. Is she talking about her floundering movie career? Hanging out with the wrong crowd? Everyone getting on her case about dating Bieber, who has been in the news for his arrests and legal problems more than ever? She didn’t specify, but said that she hopes talking about this all publicly will help other young girls avoid making the same mistakes in troubled situations.
“Yeah, I made some decisions that weren’t great…and so did [Bieber],” she told Seacrest. “It’s something I feel like girls need to hear and it’s something I need to share with this people.” She added that she considers this song and video “the perfect way to end a chapter” and move on to other things.
Honestly? It’s pretty refreshing to hear a young star talk even semi-candidly about the challenges she faces and dealing with the media circus while simply trying to figure things out. Many people in the spotlight try to pretend that everything’s fine, when the opposite is clearly true.
Now that Gomez is acknowledging all of this to her fans that have kept careful tabs on her issues throughout the year, they’ll feel like they know her even better — which is always good for keeping people invested in your career. Plus, after hearing this whole story, we’re genuinely hoping that things turn around for her. It’s always nice to hear about a child star whose story doesn’t end horribly.
By the way, even though the song is about Bieber, she still is keeping some distance: When Seacrest asked for their official status, she reverted into a non-answer. Because some things are still no one’s business.
“I support him. I think I always will,” she replied. “I’m upset when he’s upset. I’m happy when he’s happy.”