Josh Brown, the place kicker for the New York Giants, admitted to physically and emotionally abusing his former wife, according to documents turned over to police in Kings County, Wash. The 165 pages of documents, including journal entries, emails and a letter written to friends by Brown, were obtained Wednesday by SNY.TV from the Kings County Sheriff’s Office, which received them from Brown’s ex-wife following Brown’s 2015 arrest on a fourth-degree domestic violence assault charge.
In the documents, Brown, who was suspended by the NFL for the season-opener for violating the league’s personal conduct policy, refers to himself as a sex-addicted “deviant,” and his ex-wife, Molly, as “my slave.” Per Ralph Vacchiano of SNY, Brown wrote “I have physically, mentally, emotionally and verbally been a repulsive man,” and circled the words “I have abused my wife.”
In the letter he wrote to friends in 2014, Brown, who described the incident for which he was arrested as “just a moment,” identifies himself as “God basically.”
“I have been a liar for most of my life. I made selfish decisions to use and abuse women starting at the age of 7 to fill this void. I objectified women and never really worried about the pain and hurt I caused them. My ability to connect emotionally to other people was zero. My empathy levels were zero.
“Because I never handled these underlying issues I became an abuser and hurt Molly physically, emotionally and verbally. I viewed myself as God basically and she was my slave.”
Another of the documents, titled “Contract for Change,” dated March 28, 2013 (which, as Vacchiano notes, was more than two years before Brown’s arrest), and signed by both Brown and Molly, includes a passage in which Brown details his abusive behavior. “I have physically, verbally and emotionally abused my wife Molly,” he writes, as well as “I have controlled her by making her feel less human than me, and manipulated her with money.” He also notes that his step sons witnessed him abusing Molly, their mother.
The Giants declined comment regarding the document release, according to Vacchiano. In August, Giants owner John Mara publicly expressed his support for Brown, saying “All I can tell you is that we are aware of all the allegations and I believe all the facts and circumstances and we were comfortable with our decision to re-sign him. Nothing that has happened in the mean time to make us question that decision. … We attempted to make a informed decision here. We’ll live with the results of that decision.”
Giants Coach Ben McAdoo also weighed in at the time, noting the he supported Brown “as a man, a father, and a player.” Had Brown been suspended by the NFL for violation of its domestic violence policy, he would have served a six-game suspension, as opposed to the one game he was forced to sit out.