“In the bad periods I can feel very down, angry and sad because I feel like it is holding me back,” Mathiasen said.
It has also left scars, both physical and emotional. Ten years after her diagnosis, Mathiasen still puts off telling people she has scoliosis. Her back and back pain, she said, always become a topic of conversation once someone knows. The healthcare system that treated her left her feeling alienated. In photographing her scoliosis, Mathiasen had to explore her pain and how to express it while retaining a sense of her inner strength.
In that way, Mathiasen said, “the photo series is also a way for me to work with this psychological pain.”
The resulting images create a visual retrospective, made a decade after the inciting event, that reads as an autobiographical diary of Mathiasen’s journey. It imparts her pain, her vulnerability and her resilience onto the viewer. The story of Mathiasen’s pain as a 14-year-old patient is annotated by the pain she feels as a 24-year-old photographer.
“Because that is the thing with a chronical condition,” Mathiasen said. “It is always there.”
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